Lightning Strikes Me

I'm going walking in the rain
I hear the thunder, and I see the lightning.
I am going walking in the rain.

Day after day and play after play.
Is today the day I win or loose?
As if I even have the right to choose.

Look at me and a smile you will see, but not in my eye.
The pain and hurt is all in the mirror looking back at me.

The Mirror...

The one that tells your true lies, you know the ones you try to hide.
The one you look into hoping for a change and all you see is nothing but the same.

I can not see what is waiting for me,
Nor do I care to know.

Because I'm afraid to say I would die if I knew,
What the strength is, I am growing into.

Today my friend is the start to an end,
And every day in between.

It's the mornings I see as I crawl off my knees,
And Thank God for the blessings that will be.

For I am still in my path of Present and Past,
And the future is not mine to see.

With this promise I can say,
Only my music, This pen, and Me,
Can truly take me to where I can see.

I'm going walking in the rain

I hear the thunder, and I see the lightning.

I am going walking in the rain.

Melissa A. Hall

07/06/2011

Leave Me

I have used you to hold me up, I have used you for pleasure, and for pain.
I have used you to escape, To loose myself, or Maybe it was to find myself.

I have been here before. No answers to questions, and no possible way to find out.
I am so trying to find myself.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.

The summers are all different now.
Nothing to loose,  It's all lost, and Everything to gain, It's all new.

I'm lost in the days of list, and needs, to do's, and wants.
All that matters is I still can't find myself.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.

"Leave me, Let me go if you don't love me." It's a little to late.
You will hurt me, with the words you did say and the actions you did take.

I have always been there for you from the start, but for some reason now,
I feel like I stole it and left my heart.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.


The music in my head has come and gone. With no release it just stays bottled up.
But with that bottle, I must stay. For there is no room in and no way out.

When I start to hear the music and I see my way out,
The wind will stop blowing, My tears will stop flowing, and My breath will disapear.

See, I see a simple side of me.
Just look into my eyes and see my smile and.....................

Leave me.

11/15/2010
Melissa Hall

Forever my heart alone will be.

Once upon a time, In a fairy tale along time ago,
And that is were that ended.
Be strong now, because things will get better,
It might be stormy now but, it can not rain forever.

The things I can change I will do my best,
For I am only human just like the rest.
The things I can not, No Worries for me,
For those are the "wants" that will never be.

How do you know when it is truly love?
When your heart skips a beat,
And the words you want to say just seem to walk away.
How do you know when it is time to say good bye?
When it is all about the other,
And the shimmer has no color.

The air that surrounds me suffocates me with rage,
My heart is there, so dark and broken, it can only be caged.

Looking back I realize,
I was never ever meant to stay,
But what hurts the most is that you wanted it that way.

Life is a constant change.
The rocks it throws,
The storms it blows,
And the smile on a face of someone you know.

With a blink of an eye.
The storms stop blowing,
And the face stops glowing.
Forever my heart alone will be,
I have no doubt, This Is What I See.

The path I'm walking,
I must walk alone.

Forever my heart alone will be, I have no doubt, This Is What I See.


Melissa Hall
04\20\2010

Cheers To You My Friend

I don't want to go home, because I don't want to be alone.
This pain I feel inside is just something I can't hide.
For when I hide and stay alone, my friends all say something wrong.
I have no heart, this "Walking Angel" you say... is just broken anyway.

There is no, "yes or no", just only "I can't go".
For some reason I can't understand, you just don't want to take my hand.
And walk along the path we see and only be You and Me.

So, Take Care, My Good Friend, And Maybe Someday We Will Meet Again.

Please know and never forget the love I have for you I will Never regret.
I will carry it always in my heart,
Starting today, for "that" reason we must part.

Cheers

Written by,
Melissa A. Hall
04\10\2010

Art Work by: Tara McPherson

A lonley Anniversary

The time is coming soon for me to re-live the tragedy I have hidden deep in my soul.

This year the roads have all been mountains so high I could not see my way.

The sun not as bright or hot as it was before , and the winter even colder.

The pictures I had for my future are scattered with blood.

The things I thought would be hard were easy, but the things I thought easy..to hard to handle.

The smiling faces of the old family portraits I can’t even put on the wall.

My head cries why, while my heart knows not to ask.

The days have been longer this year, it is the nights that keep me awake.

The dreams I don’t want to have and the memories I can’t forget.

I look at my children and see his face, the man that took my heart so many years ago, and wonder where he went.

I alone will be at this anniversary

Only Me
Only Myself
Only I

Melissa Hall
01/2009


RIP Steve  I will always love and miss you!