Leave Me

I have used you to hold me up, I have used you for pleasure, and for pain.
I have used you to escape, To loose myself, or Maybe it was to find myself.

I have been here before. No answers to questions, and no possible way to find out.
I am so trying to find myself.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.

The summers are all different now.
Nothing to loose,  It's all lost, and Everything to gain, It's all new.

I'm lost in the days of list, and needs, to do's, and wants.
All that matters is I still can't find myself.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.

"Leave me, Let me go if you don't love me." It's a little to late.
You will hurt me, with the words you did say and the actions you did take.

I have always been there for you from the start, but for some reason now,
I feel like I stole it and left my heart.

I wish my heart did not hurt so,. So I could just forget you and let go.
I wish you would call just one more time and say "I miss you, will you be mine",
so I could lie and say what I should have said the first time.


The music in my head has come and gone. With no release it just stays bottled up.
But with that bottle, I must stay. For there is no room in and no way out.

When I start to hear the music and I see my way out,
The wind will stop blowing, My tears will stop flowing, and My breath will disapear.

See, I see a simple side of me.
Just look into my eyes and see my smile and.....................

Leave me.

11/15/2010
Melissa Hall

My Road Is Different Now

The trees are greener and the flowers more beautiful. 

The fragrance of the world I hold in the palm of  my hand.

The birds that sing to me, whisper of happy endings, and the sun that lights my way.

The wonders of the world that will always be there for me, to carry me away. 

The places I go, The people that I see,
The things I do, And the wants that I need.

The things I will accomplish, and the things that will pass me by.
I will never know, to understand why.

The people I will loose and the people that will come and go.
Will never be the road that I remembered not so long ago.

The road has a different view for me.
The choices I have, will change with the seasons of my year, or
like the tide changes the ocean currents and the waves.
These are the choices that will help guide me on my way.

We all have wonders that are ours, and ours alone, to share if we choose and hide if we want.
It is the road we take, and the path we make, that changes the choices we have for our own fate.

As the road moves and the path changes.
We must embrace the fact that time will pass us by and we will not know why.

So take a deep breath and enjoy the hear and the now.

Because the path we thought we took,
now has a different look.





Melissa A. Hall
07\25\2010

Forever my heart alone will be.

Once upon a time, In a fairy tale along time ago,
And that is were that ended.
Be strong now, because things will get better,
It might be stormy now but, it can not rain forever.

The things I can change I will do my best,
For I am only human just like the rest.
The things I can not, No Worries for me,
For those are the "wants" that will never be.

How do you know when it is truly love?
When your heart skips a beat,
And the words you want to say just seem to walk away.
How do you know when it is time to say good bye?
When it is all about the other,
And the shimmer has no color.

The air that surrounds me suffocates me with rage,
My heart is there, so dark and broken, it can only be caged.

Looking back I realize,
I was never ever meant to stay,
But what hurts the most is that you wanted it that way.

Life is a constant change.
The rocks it throws,
The storms it blows,
And the smile on a face of someone you know.

With a blink of an eye.
The storms stop blowing,
And the face stops glowing.
Forever my heart alone will be,
I have no doubt, This Is What I See.

The path I'm walking,
I must walk alone.

Forever my heart alone will be, I have no doubt, This Is What I See.


Melissa Hall
04\20\2010

When I think of my future,

I think of Brianna’s wedding, Will I be the one that gives her away?
I think of Austin Growing up as “The man” in the house, As a 8 year old little boy.
I think about the Dances, the Soccer games, and all the other activities that I will be the only one to look on with joy and pride!
When I look in the mirror, I think “You are all alone, and you are ALL responsible.”
I find pain and pleasure in that thought.
The pain comes from the unanswered questions still lingering in my head.
The pleasure comes from knowing I do the best I can one day at a time, and it is all mine.
I think for my future I will not let fear lead me, I will make my choices the best I can and not look back.
For regret lives within your soul and eats it’s way from the inside out, if you let it.
But to realize we are all individuals, Human, so you may say, we will make both the wrong and right choices.
So I will hold my head up high, know I did the best I could and would not change a thing, because the past unlike the future made me who I am today.

When I think of my future…. I think I will cross that path when I get there.

For it does not matter how fast or what is there, But that I am who I am when I arrive.


Melissa Hall
05/22/09